Head above water Ryan
17
SoIL

I over think things. I make situations way worse than they are, even if they aren’t even bad. Tonight, is one of those nights. All I want to do is spill my guts out, but I don’t want to on here cause no one talks to me about it. I break down and let things get to me way to easily. I feel so alone right now. My girlfriend and friend are hanging out talking and I have to be home doing nothing. Fuck having to be home at 11pm. Go call me a pussy, you’re just the asshole how too the time to give a shit to read this and make things worse. I need my girlfriend cause she knows how to cheer me up. Fuck sake I hate tonight.

So instead of texting me while I was out she goes to my parents to go into my room and get it. I’m not pissed she has it back. I don’t understand why she can’t send a simple fucking text. Does anyone? I have gone over this with her several times and for some reason she can’t get her dumb fuck ears to listen to me. Honestly I thought she grew up a bit. Lol fucking 14 year olds. I have given this girl soooooooooooooooooo many chances. Honestly way to many, but I’m told I have to get giving her more cause she’s my sister. Fuck that. I give fucks because I’m her older brother. Not anymore. The simplest thing can piss me off with my sisters because being an only brother blows. None of them care on what I have to say. The only one I liked was my older one and when I talk to her she either sounds, looks, or plan says “I don’t really care, Ryan.” and kinda starts laughing. Maybe I just think they’re against me, but honestly I see that they are. Fuck.